Shrishti Singh Rajput

Maybe yesterday or today had hit the ground and didn't go as planned, but still, I believe that something will happen tomorrow to make it better.  I'll bounce back. It doesn't matter how high I could reach, what's more important is that I still got the chance to move higher than where I was yesterday. And if I didn't get the chance to bounce back even an inch tomorrow, might as well use it to cry out a little more, or just let the day suck because I know that it doesn't mean I'm slacking or my days won't shift back to lighter path. I know that it's much easier to say that everything will be alright. Sometimes we don't believe it too and say “I can't stand this anymore. I'll just give up.”, but every breath we take, every rest we manage to get, every tear we pour out, or a rant we let out is really worth it. Even if it's not visible or hardly recognized because of the gloominess around, stars will be there to light our path...

Up by 4am... I never was much of a morning person. But times have changed so much... Some days, I am still not, but still, I rise By 6 o'clock. The years have since passed since depression Would keep me bed ridden. Gone are the times, where sadness, riddled me to my core. Replaced with the days, where I look forward to the rising of the sun... And I haven't been awake all night to greet its presence. Times have changed. Sleep, now comes easily. Nightmares, replaced with a sleep so deep I barely remember a dream. And the tears... Well, they barely fall; if, at all.  Times have changed.  It has become effortless to smile, & not have to fake it. It has become second nature to assert boundaries, & not feel the need to explain why they are there. I no longer feel guilty for feeling happy. I no longer wait for the bad; when everything is going good. I no longer best myself up, when I make a mistake. I no longer live in fear, & it's a breath of fresh air. T...

Things i unlearnt and learnt as i grew up: 1. it's okay to have an opinion on things. you aren't the person you were 10 years ago. even if you are afraid, it's okay to want to change and express yourself without feeling that you are a bother or an inconvenience. you can tell your friends that you don't like to go to clubs every Friday, you can decide which restaurant you want to try, you can ask them to change something if you feel uncomfortable, you can tell them to respect your boundaries if they overstep. you are allowed not to be nice to the family members who are always mocking you, you can be a part of planning a trip rather than just saying "oh, anything's fine". people aren't adjusting to your needs. you are just finding balance and being involved the way it suits you. 2. it's okay to forgive someone and still cut off their access to you. you don't have to answer their unnecessary questions or make them understand why you do...

"When you are in a very difficult situation, and it’s extremely easier not to say something, or to change the story just a tiny bit at that moment, which is considered a white lie, I don't believe that's a good idea or actually workout! It’s scary, to tell the truth, but it’s worth 100 times rather than taking a shade of lies! Mostly, it is an illusion of the mind that “what would be the consequences if I speak the truth in front of society”!  Don’t be afraid to speak the truth, and take a stand for the justice of what is true. And if you really want to choose to be afraid, then be afraid of only the right things! And the right thing you should be afraid of is not to speak what is the truth, specifically against the corrupt system of pathological government, that pathologies the States & Societies! And if enough people pathologies the system of the republic, then that's the pure hell of democracy!   Don’t underestimate the power of truth! If...

I find myself staring into the abyss, thinking of how am I really doing. I tell people that I am well, that I am not stressed and not having anxiety attacks. Maybe I'm just indenial. I don't know. I know that I lost my spark— my sunshine. It's not that I don't give energy to people these days because I don't get the same energy in return, it's just because I don't have thee energy to do so. I don't have the energy to greet my friends, to message them, and to ask how they are doing anymore. It's not that I chose to be in detox from social media, but because I'm drained to scroll, to type and to open messages. It's not that I decided to go back to journaling, but because I'm trying to find my rainbow particles. I tried reading. I tried writing. I tried journaling. But none of them makes me feel alive for a day or two. I know I need to rest. I know I'm not well. I know I just hide the fact and camouflage everything with a smi...

I am emotionally unstable ( maybe that's the right word) one second I'll be drowing in my own thoughts, then I'll torture myself in my mind, another second I'll be cheering my self up. I can do stupid things ( infact I've done it ) another time I'll get scared, I'll be regrate full. One day ,I'll get lost, another day I'll envisioned clear paths. Sometimes, I get too sad for no specific reason. It's miserable that the thing that once made me same is slowly drifting away from me. For those who checks me out, who message me privately, sorry for not telling the whole story , i can't even understand myself in that spare of moments but know that I really appreciate you. Despite the chaos of this world you still choose to give me the fragment of your kindness. Also, I stumbled before, still stumbling now, it still hurts me , I'm still crying inks to spill the bottled emotions but I'll stand up "Not immediately b...

"You deserve a love that's.. reassuring; the kind of love that will make you feel safe and sound - the love that heals your old wounds and not add up to the pain you've felt. Love and pain may be tied with each other but the right love will never hurt you- the right love, will even allow you to grow , the right love will cradle your heart with steady hands and will never shake at any single misunderstanding. wait for it. Never settle for less- never let anyone manipulate you into believing that hurting is fine, masked under promises of love." ~Shrishtisinghrajput✨