Time🦋

Up by 4am...

I never was much of a morning person.

But times have changed so much...

Some days, I am still not, but still, I rise

By 6 o'clock.

The years have since passed since depression

Would keep me bed ridden. Gone are the times, where sadness, riddled me to my core.

Replaced with the days, where I look forward to the rising of the sun...

And I haven't been awake all night to greet its presence.

Times have changed. Sleep, now comes easily.

Nightmares, replaced with a sleep so deep I barely remember a dream. And the tears... Well, they barely fall; if, at all. 

Times have changed. 

It has become effortless to smile, & not have to fake it. It has become second nature to assert boundaries, & not feel the need to explain why they are there. I no longer feel guilty for feeling happy. I no longer wait for the bad; when everything is going good. I no longer best myself up, when I make a mistake. I no longer live in fear, & it's a breath of fresh air.

Times have changed. As, have I.

Recovery, has been my greatest discovery. With time, scars of healed, old wounds have faded... The past doesn't haunt me like it once had... The past no longer hurts me, like it once did.

& I can look back, & reflect with a smile at the journey that has been walked; with forgiveness. For others, & for myself. The load has become lighter, now that I have found much strength in myself.

Maybe I chose change...

Or change chose me?

Either way, I am grateful, to be here.

& in many ways, I am grateful for my struggles;

for making me who I am. For without them, I am not sure I could fully appreciate the blessings or where I am today.

It hasn't been an easy journey, but it was worth every step.

~Shrishti✨