Away🍂

I've been away from people,even from the closest ones, lately. It has been weeks since I last spoke to some of them. The real reason is I've gone tired of everything, even to those persons that I treasure the most.

 I've got exhausted to the extent that even just listening to their stories had drained me; that through a response or even an advice wasn't needed from my end, it wore me out. I've been quite, because I was afraid to lose them, that few of them might misunderstood this state of mine. But this is me- I disappear once I am stressed out. I distance myself, not merely because I'm done with them, but for the reason that I cherish them deeply; and that I must hold unto my being first before showing up again to them. I want to hear there stories once I am fully present on the moment.

What terrifies me the most is reaching tha max of this phase - also getting tired of my own self. So the energy that is still left in me are all offered to myself- the little love tiniest of trust, and a bit of care, I am giving it all to these days. I'll be back , that's what I used to say but, I am not asking anyone to wait for me again. If people will go, it will be fine. If there will be some who will stay, of course, I'll be glad, either way I will surely understand.

~Shrishtisinghrajput✨