Not Immediately 🌼

I am emotionally unstable ( maybe that's the right word) one second I'll be drowing in my own thoughts, then I'll torture myself in my mind, another second I'll be cheering my self up. I can do stupid things ( infact I've done it ) another time I'll get scared, I'll be regrate full. One day ,I'll get lost, another day I'll envisioned clear paths. Sometimes, I get too sad for no specific reason. It's miserable that the thing that once made me same is slowly drifting away from me. For those who checks me out, who message me privately, sorry for not telling the whole story , i can't even understand myself in that spare of moments but know that I really appreciate you. Despite the chaos of this world you still choose to give me the fragment of your kindness. Also, I stumbled before, still stumbling now, it still hurts me , I'm still crying inks to spill the bottled emotions but I'll stand up "Not immediately b...